to me.

i dont know why. my mood is reaallyyyyy swingggg.

aku tak tahu apa yang meratah kepala minda aku sekarang. i am lost. i miss the midnight life. i miss the Hawkin.

there was Intan who was too cheeky to be handled, die hard fan of butterfingers. why? entah. aku part music ni layan je semua, so selalu ada fighting dengan Intan about our gorgeous idols. haha. but she is my sister. a great one.

Ariff the *bastard* drummer, bastard in the wayy super cool. drum set dah macam awek dah. first time jumpa masa lepak 7, aku fly and terjumpa this evil but yet diligent creature. he is handsome, awww :D

Andi anak si Kumang, there was also Kulo si gemukk, both was the clowns in our Hawkin. dioraang la yang selalu mempermainkan hati jiwa dan raga aku. ceyy. aku selalu jadi mangsa mereka T.T bad Andi Kulo, you were bad!

Zack the old granny, suka sangat membebel dengan aku macam-macam. he is older around years rough. ibarat seorang abang? TAK. macam nenek kebayan sangap ice -_____-

and my bestie ever, Adi the cyanic. the most ignorant boy i have ever found. ironically, he love me. haha. walaupun sama umur, dia dah macam abang aku, my knight, my soul, my very self. haha. sorry di, marah siot awek kau kalau dia baca benda ni.

dan aku, Myraz the vampire. one's bloody hell nickname that was given by Kulo. dia kata masa first jumpa aku, aku cold. aku ignored people. i made such a huge wall, act as a barrier. i closed my heart to a certain degrees where no one can reach me. Kulo said that, the loneliness inside me was what worried him so much that he wanted me to join Hawkin so much. really, being a clown did made him a great perceptive person, huh.

i also miss the old ramp. the scent of midnight midst. that peaceful mind. the Hawkin. the slumber party. the court momento. the KFC's fighting. the Karok time. the Pangkor's trip. the meja petak moment. the truth or dare challenges. SEMUA.  aku sumpah rindu semua tu.

nocturnal kids? hah, be it. i don't care what people talk about me. perlu ke aku kesah? they were not helping either then why bother?? hulur tangan membantu? bweehh. hulur tangan ke caci maki? even their eyes was cold and denied us. i know that chill when somebody glared at you, without a smile, even a smirk, and turn away just like i am a sort of wall or something. 

mereka semua dah tiada. scattering along the horizon strive for another life needs and wants. left me behind who is still clinging to the past.

i sounded like an old hag. aku memang vampire ke pun? haha. silly.

yeah kid, as if you know what a past without regret. a past without regret just a blank paper. it's all bullshit.

but don't worry Fara. that Myraz is dead now. you and you only to face the future. brace it. don't kneel before it. just keep your chin high and smile. even its kill you.