GAZA, i am here.

first muharram, that peaceful morning, a morning that for the first time i can woke earlier than normal, i heard off some unpleasant news from my room-mate.

I was told by her that Gaza was under attacking by Israel and that time and i could not say anything, Israel was bombing my brothers and sisters there while i just had a sweet dream!

that night i was browsing the picture and news from Gaza, all the pictures show me the burden that my bros and sis have on their shoulder, show me how the cute 10-months baby syahid, show me how ignorance the war is towards the humanity.

i don't know how the things started, but i do know what is the war. in war, i see small but strong hope, and in war i see human, but with no humanity. 

i don't know at all how it felt to be in such tragic war, but i do understand the pain when looking at my bros and sis fighting for a life there. i do know how their feeling when their child bombed in front of their very eyes. i do know they hoping for life, hoping for better, hoping for future, hoping for Allah.

O` Allah, please help them.

Dear Palestinians, i am always here, to pray for your safeness and peacefulness with all my heart for all my brother and sister there.

you still have me, a love from me <3

that night.

sepanjang hari aku tidur and malam tadi aku tension. 
aku taktau kenapa but aku memang tension.
shahrul buat lawak bodoh pun aku gelak cukup syarat je, seriously i don't know why,
aku terfikir, maybe aku patut call orang, sesiapa la,
lagipun memang tu pun aku selalu buat if aku tension,
aku taktau nak call siapa, budak kmb memang tak la, mana ada yg aku kamceng,
kalau ada pun duk kutuk belakang kot, 

hmm so aku teringat laa kat bestfriend aku, haha. crush sebenarnya, suwey kan aku.
aku takut actually, mana la tau dia tak suka aku call dia kan, ganggu ke apa,
lagipun aku bukannya pernah pun call dia, so sangat awkward nak call!
but yeah aku tetap call. 

happy gila dapat dengar suara dia. haha. banyak cerita yang dia share dgn aku tadi,
dan aku punn banyak share dgn dia tadi. lama gila on the phone.
sampai sekarang ni pun aku stil tak percaya aku call dia tadi, hilang tension aku,

well maybe this is the last aku call dia. tak boleh doe. aku rasa laa kan, dah ada org da yang tunggu dia kat tempat dia study tu. sumpah aku sedih sebenarnya, hmm macam bodoh kan, mmg bodoh pun aku ni. suck. 

*thankyou, terharu aku tadi last word kau. sampai sekarang still terngiang. tapi sorry aku tak mampu nak balas, 

FINAL- kata hati mati

heyeaahhh final sudah mahu menjelma,

sebarang persiapan apa pun aku takde,

hanya ilmu di kepala dan tangan yang sudah berkarat,

ilmu math aku semua sudah tergadai di medan SPM dahulu kala,

ya Allah kau ringankan lah beban hamba-Mu ini ya Allaah!!

aku sumpah cuak, aku taktau kenapa,

mungkin amalan tidak setimpal dengan permintaan yang bakal dibuat,

hati mula berat dengan dosa-dosa lalu,

banyak aku khilaf,

banyak aku alpa leka lupa,

terngadah ditampar perit dosa lalu,

haiyoo sakit tau!

padan muka kau,

-.-

bullshit kau merepek apa ni?

okay tinggal semua,

fb, manga, lagu, phone, ym,

err, phone takpayah kot,

haha, okay itu sangat bullshit,

mungkin patut tutup laptop ni?

hmm mungkin, selamat tinggal Acer,

aku sayang kau sangat,

kau sangat nipis dan ringan,

awww nanti aku rindu,

dua minggu??

insyaAllah malam nanti aku on balik,

haha soalan bank aku dalam laptop la!!

okay maybe maxis patut dicabut,

maxis di bukit changgang, hmpph

bullsshit.

takpun just be ready segala gear kepala,

mungkin, 

aku tak tahuuuu

rasa nak jerit kat semua orang,

aku taknak finaaal

arrrgghhhhh,

oh my it's just like Hulk.

hahaha, that is my bad, my bad

to my guys, pleassee do pray for my ketenangan hati.

hati sangat tak tennang

walaupun hakikat muka tenang tanpa sebarang riak

muka ini berjaya meragut ketenangan hati orang yang memandang, 

tapi hati aku,  siapa tahu meehhh.



P/S, nampak tak aku merapu? tanda2 otak skru hilang. doakan saya tenang di final nanti, mintak halalkan segala ilmu dan apa sahaja yg pernah diberi, maaf. :)

catatan hati

untuk manusia sebaik-baik kau
untuk orang yang dah banyak berkorban untuk orang lain
untuk orang yang telah disakiti dengan perit sekali seperti kau,

aku tidak layak,

maafkan aku,

jangan harapkan aku,

tolong.

that litle memory

memory 

sometime trapping us nowhere 

didn't care if i am meeting someone or like in the class

or even at counter when i want to pay for my top up

the memory will crawling wildly without careless together with image 

that was intriguing

keep popping like soap balloon 

i missed them so much.

here kolej mara banting,

there was still no this sweet thingy 

like i ever have back 2010-2011

really, i missed them.

hey guys

thank you for leaving me something

that i still hold it tight here

once ReviVEna+, always ReviVena+